I believe in do overs. I call do over all the time. And I am doing it again today. I am regarding this as if I’ve never blogged before. Mainly because it’s been so darned long since I’ve written anything because I have been knitting and crocheting up a storm.
My cousin, Joanie (I got her in the marriage – and she’s a hoot!) reminded me that I am a good writer. This comes on the heels of me missing writing and seeing things about writers, publishing and writing at almost every turn. One could think it was a sign – if one believed in signs.
It becomes increasingly important for me to do some writing – not just because it is a gift of skill – but because it might well keep me from going insane. I’ve been knitting nonstop since the last part of 2012 and I do believe I may be going a little bat ass crazy. (Do not ask me what bat ass crazy is. If I have to explain it you ain’t ever been there and if you ain’t ever been there, I am going to preserve the mystery.)
You want to know how ‘bad’ it’s gotten (the quotations are so God knows this is an observation and not a complaint) I haven’t had an order in three days – and I don’t care. The one before that was five days ago and I consider it a blessing.
I purchased a dry board calendar sometime in December and pulled the wrapping off that puppy last night and mapped out the orders I have. 3 a day and if I don’t get another sale until they’re done, it would take me right up to Feb 24. This euphoria of not being affected by a slow down of sales will not last but I am not in a rush to make it get here any faster.
I am looking forward to doing some new things and putting new things in the shop but three items a day will take me about 10-15 hours to knit. That does not give much time for the new stuff – though I do have ideas and notes. But getting too far ahead in the thinking only encourages disappointment as my days are already bought and paid for. I do feel better getting those orders out and this is what I asked for so I cannot diss the blessings – that would be bad form and rude.
But I do have to say – I’m a little ‘knit up’ at the moment. This, too, shall pass, as it is one of the greatest blessings of my life and has the added benefit of contributing to the family in such a way that we have not, as yet, had to touch any of the retirement money. It keeps me overflowing in fiber, is a great reason to get together with some of the best women I know ( hi y’all) and Mr. Honey won’t let me make him anything other than a scarf every now and then so I don’t have the pressure to create a sweater for a loved one and then watch as he doesn’t wear it. There is also the never-ending pleasure of seeing someone’s face when they make a comment on how knitting could never really be a ‘job’ and how I make a few extra dollars with my ‘hobby’ and I respond by saying, ‘That all might be true (it isn’t but it once was when I started out) – but now I do pretty well – KNITTING.”
That’s pretty freaking good.
So this feeling will not last so long…but I cannot abandon the feeling I get by writing.
Balance in all things.